"If i was all jacked up on mountain dew"

I honestly dont know what do to anymore once again. I found out some terrible news last night about my mother and i never would have thought she would put up with that considering she always tells me to "never let a guy hit you." Last night Mike Blackwood assulted my mother, my mom, the one person i couldnt live without no matter how many fights we get into. I swear to god if i wasnt the only person in the house, i would have kicked his ass right then and there. I hope he feels like shit, complete shit. That son-a-bitch hit my mother and he deserves everything he gets, which should be nothing. I hope we leave, i hope my brother beats the shit out of him. I wanted to go in his room last night and scream at him so bad. Take my baseball bat to him honestly. Maybe i shouldve just called my dad and let hm handle everything and then i would really know that he got something he would actually deserve. The bruse this morning was huge on her; considering she didnt even get home when i was awake. I stayed up so long just waiting for the front door to open. I called her so many times, texts to many times. I finally got a text back at 11:30ish saying she was driving around the neighborhood. He did that shit on purpose when my brother turned last night. That fuckin girl couldnt even do it with him looking. I really wish i was there when this happen, i would flipped out. I wish he would hit me back, his ass would be dead in the next 12 hours. My brother called me around 9ish telling me what all happen and he was begging me not to go up to that little shit and scream in his face. He said that it would take him to long to get there in time because i was home alone with him. Anthony Lane "if i was all jacked up on mountain dew and shit, i woulda gone buck wild ninja on that bitch."

Let's Runaway

So i gotta give prompts to Bruno Mars. Honey marry me please? (:

Just sayin' Ill runaway with you defiantly. Your voice is too sexy just to pass up. You and your curly hair are a abosolutly turn on. Let's move on, Today is Friday April 23, 2010. In other words, last day of baseball season and that means we play irving if it doesn't rain. So the clouds outside are not good, hopefully we play so we can dominate irving high. And nimitz plays i have no clue but in truth and only truth nobody cares for nimitz. Our baseball game will MOST likely be on tv tonight channel 16? Irving Independent School Distrist (IISD) Channel. So after school, I need to hit up Targjayyy and get some sunglasses because mine currently broke; Tears i know. But these HAVE to last me all summer well hopefully they will. Speaking of SUMMER 10, CRAZY! I think we have around 30 days of school left! Im stoked about the summer but unfortunally i dont have a bathing suit yet which suuuuucks. Maybe ill get my daddy to buy me one or twwo sunday. Hoprfully he will because he hasnt bought me much lately at all. Which is GAY in my perceptive. "Excuse me if my swaggers on point!" Props to Asian fuckin' lien bitches - Bite my swag hoes. Alright im outt, This is LaurenRene' speaking. Peace out sugarplums!

So i wonder if he still has that paper i wrote like months ago? I meant every word i said in that paper. Haha, i remember i said shit about valerie in that paper. Dumb bitch, i cant stand her. Her or her and her little friends. Their so immature its not even funny for real. Like really, get over him. Me on the other hand was never over him, and i know i was different with him. I knew we would be together since last year. The fact that he could totally screw me over and i still couldn't let go, i knew at that point this guy is different. I fall in love with him everyday like i never did. We do just about everything together, the only thing is the girls. I hate them but i guess i'll just have to get over it because there will always be girls in the way. I trust him, i really do but when he gets around all them other girls it drives me crazy inside. I dont wanna be that girl who tells him who he cant talk to. And i've been told that i cant talk to somebody and it drives me insane so i talk to that person more. So thats why i cant say anything and gotta hold it inside as usual. I never really would have thought he would get so mad about something like this. About me not going to a seven on seven game? I didnt think he would really care that much but he does (: But is that a good thing? Yeah, idontknow about that one but oh well. He told me the other day when i was over foreverr, that his mom loves me. That is effffin awesome dude! I want her to love me. She's hailious and the fact that she showed me so many pictures, and GAVE me one. He was adorable and fat and so was i haha. But i think honestly that it made him feel good because me and his mom were getting close well hopefully he's okay with it especailly because he's a mommas boy big time.

So I've never really had a blog before but there's so much going on in my life right now, i need to write about everything. Why do i have to I have to grow up so quick? I mean really, I'm only seventeen, i should be partying and hanging out with friends and having the time of my life but yet im having to find my own food, my own money? Really, i dont even have a job but i have to worry about all this CRAP. Ever since i was little, i had to go through things that kids shouldn't have to. Age 8, i had to grow up. No more playing with toys, no more playing outside, no more laughing. Its rediculous how im so into god but yet i still have to go through all this. Yeah, its awesome to know that your never alone but in reality you are. God isnt a person, he's a spirit. I only have my friends, those are the only ones i trust in life. I cant trust my family and to me thats pretty bad if you dont trust your own parents. My parents have let me down so much its not even funny. Actually right now, my mom and i got into a huge fight because she doesnt "trust" me now, and in reality she never did. She doesn't know me, Lauren Rene' Hart, at all. How can you not know your own daughter? Sorry but that right there does NOT make any since to me. She says she loves me but does she really? Would she give up the world for me? That answer in not at all, and probably not even a chance. Is that sad when a seventeen year old can say that? But ya know, its whatever bro! Out of all the crap that i've been through, i think im pretty good as a person and have matured over the years. People say i dont even act my right age which is good. But like i said, its whatever, everything you go through will ALWAYS make you stronger in life.