So i wonder if he still has that paper i wrote like months ago? I meant every word i said in that paper. Haha, i remember i said shit about valerie in that paper. Dumb bitch, i cant stand her. Her or her and her little friends. Their so immature its not even funny for real. Like really, get over him. Me on the other hand was never over him, and i know i was different with him. I knew we would be together since last year. The fact that he could totally screw me over and i still couldn't let go, i knew at that point this guy is different. I fall in love with him everyday like i never did. We do just about everything together, the only thing is the girls. I hate them but i guess i'll just have to get over it because there will always be girls in the way. I trust him, i really do but when he gets around all them other girls it drives me crazy inside. I dont wanna be that girl who tells him who he cant talk to. And i've been told that i cant talk to somebody and it drives me insane so i talk to that person more. So thats why i cant say anything and gotta hold it inside as usual. I never really would have thought he would get so mad about something like this. About me not going to a seven on seven game? I didnt think he would really care that much but he does (: But is that a good thing? Yeah, idontknow about that one but oh well. He told me the other day when i was over foreverr, that his mom loves me. That is effffin awesome dude! I want her to love me. She's hailious and the fact that she showed me so many pictures, and GAVE me one. He was adorable and fat and so was i haha. But i think honestly that it made him feel good because me and his mom were getting close well hopefully he's okay with it especailly because he's a mommas boy big time.

So I've never really had a blog before but there's so much going on in my life right now, i need to write about everything. Why do i have to I have to grow up so quick? I mean really, I'm only seventeen, i should be partying and hanging out with friends and having the time of my life but yet im having to find my own food, my own money? Really, i dont even have a job but i have to worry about all this CRAP. Ever since i was little, i had to go through things that kids shouldn't have to. Age 8, i had to grow up. No more playing with toys, no more playing outside, no more laughing. Its rediculous how im so into god but yet i still have to go through all this. Yeah, its awesome to know that your never alone but in reality you are. God isnt a person, he's a spirit. I only have my friends, those are the only ones i trust in life. I cant trust my family and to me thats pretty bad if you dont trust your own parents. My parents have let me down so much its not even funny. Actually right now, my mom and i got into a huge fight because she doesnt "trust" me now, and in reality she never did. She doesn't know me, Lauren Rene' Hart, at all. How can you not know your own daughter? Sorry but that right there does NOT make any since to me. She says she loves me but does she really? Would she give up the world for me? That answer in not at all, and probably not even a chance. Is that sad when a seventeen year old can say that? But ya know, its whatever bro! Out of all the crap that i've been through, i think im pretty good as a person and have matured over the years. People say i dont even act my right age which is good. But like i said, its whatever, everything you go through will ALWAYS make you stronger in life.