So I've never really had a blog before but there's so much going on in my life right now, i need to write about everything. Why do i have to I have to grow up so quick? I mean really, I'm only seventeen, i should be partying and hanging out with friends and having the time of my life but yet im having to find my own food, my own money? Really, i dont even have a job but i have to worry about all this CRAP. Ever since i was little, i had to go through things that kids shouldn't have to. Age 8, i had to grow up. No more playing with toys, no more playing outside, no more laughing. Its rediculous how im so into god but yet i still have to go through all this. Yeah, its awesome to know that your never alone but in reality you are. God isnt a person, he's a spirit. I only have my friends, those are the only ones i trust in life. I cant trust my family and to me thats pretty bad if you dont trust your own parents. My parents have let me down so much its not even funny. Actually right now, my mom and i got into a huge fight because she doesnt "trust" me now, and in reality she never did. She doesn't know me, Lauren Rene' Hart, at all. How can you not know your own daughter? Sorry but that right there does NOT make any since to me. She says she loves me but does she really? Would she give up the world for me? That answer in not at all, and probably not even a chance. Is that sad when a seventeen year old can say that? But ya know, its whatever bro! Out of all the crap that i've been through, i think im pretty good as a person and have matured over the years. People say i dont even act my right age which is good. But like i said, its whatever, everything you go through will ALWAYS make you stronger in life.